everyone is wondering when is it going to happen to them. WHen is it going to happen. is it going to happen.
blah blah. it gets so fucking old.
i seriously got upset when i saw a happy couple today they couldnt stop touching but in a caring nonsexual way. i was envious.

i have to stop toturing myself over this. It will happen. I have to know it will happen.
being able to be in love and be loved is like winning the best prize or game or getting the best present that never ends.

I wish i had some weed.. i wish i had some money to spend on it.

dont wait. dont wait for anything. get what you can. get what you truly want and know is good.. everything that is unattainable let go of. if it's not beneficial to me or my life.. let it go.